Friday, January 6, 2012

Perfect Seeing

Did I ever think I would come to a place where I would See the Perfection of exhaustion?
And yet, I do.

With a newborn comes for me a profound exhaustion, a tiredness so deep it seems to wash over me, filling every crevice of my being until words can't even form.

But I have learned a secret this time,

Try to push past it, form words anyway, complete life becomes very difficult.

Let the waves sweep me under, glaze my eyes and smile slow smiles of dreamy wonder, and exhaustion becomes a balm, a place where to-dos and necessary words no longer exist.

Instead there is only this moment.

There is her face making the most exquisite pattern of expressions that I find my own face mimicking.

There is her sweet baby scent filling me.

There is the way her warm body feels curled against me.

There is the softness of the sheets, the sliding softness of my feet against each other, the warmth of the blanket...

There are only these things, things so subtle they would be invisible to my eyes if they were not covered in the haze of exhaustion.

Oh yes, my Creator knows me and knows exactly what I need to experience what my deepest desire right now is, to bond deeply and surely with Miss Piper.

As always, perfection exists when i am blessed with moments of Perfect Seeing.
May I have more and more of them.

1 comment:

  1. Beautifully written. <3